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My mind is starting to feel blank..a meltdown..a total thrown down..sick to my stomach..ears ringing..is it ever going to end..they say the heart is what keeps us alive..why is it that when we get hurt our heart hurts? when the emotions is set in the brain..can a braindead man feel?

I want to fly high..want to stop the heart from feeling and the brain from thinking..mentally disturbed..I´m over it, I´m done with this..tried for so long to find myself..I found it..I didn´t like it, can´t change it...rumbleling...stumbeling..words tripping over my toung..empty lungs..

Drama..carma...feeling so cold..teardrops mixing with the drops of sweat..will it ever end..

Overdose..making me feel high..bringing me up..bringing me down..bringing me to the point where it all explodes..but not ends..why is it that it never ends..

Shoulda, woulda..coulda..what is real and what is not..have we reached that spot..
I´m a melting mess..a complete meltdown..staining your carped..

You´r angry..I´m no one to tell you..what you shoulda, woulda or coulda done..I´m no one.. used to be everything..I´m no one..

Who am I? Where am I? Why am I?

Love..